You know how sometimes you meet someone and you’re just like “Yeah. Yeah you’re cool. I like you.” And then because of the Wonderful World of Facebook, you are able to connect and see more of that person and how their brain works and be like “Yeah. Yeah you’re incredibly AWESOME. Let’s be buddies because I think our brains are riding some of the same waves and I dig it. And you.” Well, one such fantastic person I know, Tia, has started a tumblr (inspired by a production being put on by a local theatre company) encouraging folks to go on an Identity Scavenger Hunt. And in her rallying cry of “let’s be brave and search alone-together” (which I love love love love) – I’m all in. And I encourage you to play along as well!
Over the next 30 days or so, Tia will be posting a question or two a day from the famous Proust Questionnaire on the tumblr. I’ll be doing my best to keep up and answer the questions here; my approach will be to not think too much about any one answer and to go from the gut. You can answer the questions on the Identity Scavenger Hunt tumblr, on your own blog, in your journal, in your head, or feel free to e-mail answers directly to the lovely Tia at email@example.com – she may want to use some of your answers in different ways in the future!
So without further ado…here are the first four questions and my not-too-thought-over answers:
1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?
Feeling the gentle hum of life energy resting in the space slightly above “just OK” and slightly below “exuberant”…a joyful calmness of the soul; clutching an oversized mug of coffee or tea in a slightly-too-cold living room while the cat is curled in my lap or on my feet on a quiet morning when the day is full of new or at the end of an evening when the day has been well-lived; when I am sharing breath and space with another and feel that click that means you are both fully present and your souls start tumbling out of your lips; an empty theatre – no expectations just the promise of endless possibility and ghosts of stories told before and hopeful wisps of those still waiting to be born.
2. What is your greatest fear?
This has been the same for me from the time I was very young and saying it or writing it always makes me tear up or bawl like a baby (breath): My greatest fear is that I will die and people that I love will be left wondering if I really loved them or not. This idea is terrifying and shakes me down to my core. I know it can be overwhelming for some, but this is why I go hard on expressing how much I love people – I say “I love you” and say it often because I never want anyone to question it when I am no longer here to tell them. (annnnnd tears…on cue… as always. sheesh.)
3. Which historical figure do you most identify with?
I have NO clue…history was never a subject I paid close attention to and I’ve never been particularly moved to read biographies/autobiographies. Though maybe this is something I should explore. I admire the heck out of Gandhi and believe strongly in his peace teachings. So maybe Gandhi? Mother Teresa is another. Though admiring is different than identifying. This question raises more questions…
4. Which living person do you most admire?
Jane Goodall perhaps? Lately, I’ve been playing around a lot with the idea of doing “good” in the world and how if you feel ill-equipped to make a wave in the ocean, can you make a ripple in the pond that is just as “good”? I don’t know my path, I may always be a pond-or-lake-dweller so ripples may always be my jam – but I greatly admire the ocean-dwellers who make the waves.